If You Forget to Scatter the Ashes

No. Fucking. Way.

Guess I finally have a chance but...I dunno...I need to talk to Roxas about this...this is just...man talk about timing. 

Alright...THAT was really fucking weird.

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Uhm...why is there a small fuzzy thing sleeping on my bed...


a...purring small fuzzy...thing


WHEN THE HELL DID WE GET A CAT!?  Ah shit who knows what else we did during that fog...and why a cat? 

It is kind of cute though

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Oh! And if anyone is wondering...NO I didn't burn the house down while I was on 'the fog.'  Weird, huh?  It's like...a fucking miracle that I didn't cause you would think if I was out of my mind the house would have been the first thing in flames...

Hey! Hey Bitches!

The foggy stuff?  It actually burns plaid.  I didn't think burning plaid was possible but it is! It really, really is!  And I bet you all are just jealous that you can't be as super awesome as me to discover it! Ha! You're all lame.

Lame with a capital "T"

Cause lame is spelled with 'T' got it memorized?  And if neone nos how two speel it is me Axl!

And Roxas...Roxas got pretty pink feesh around his head...they're pretty...like his eyes.  Blue eyes likes the water in the feesh bowl where the pink feesh live.  I don't like water but I like feesh.  We should get a feesh Roxas...we can totally get a feesh and let it live in the bathtub cause then it'd have tons of room to swim or something.

Feesh like to swim...like I don't like to do.  But soon we won't have to worry because there's stuff in the water that is flammbubble and that means I can burn it all away and no more water to worry about.

You know what else is flammbubble...stuff.  Lots of stuff is flammbubble and I am going to make all the flammbubble stuff on FIRE.

Cause fire is cool HOT. Super hot! Like...an exploding sun on fire hot!

LIKE YOUR FACE!  Only NOT cause the only person with a hot face on fire here is ME...cause I burn...I burn hotly.

LAWL~

So the party wasn't half bad. Aside from a certain incident which I'm not going to talk about...

Demyx and Namine showed up...and then Namine brought some friends of hers. No offense to her or anything but it's hard to believe someone so quiet all the time could make so many friends like that. Guess they look out for her though...which I know won't stop Roxas from worrying 24-7 about the girl but at least it'll probably make him relax a little now that he's actually met them.

Anyways, things are going good for the most part, especially considering the fun Roxas and I had before Halloween hit. Cause what's more fun than blowjobs and handjobs.

Ah, shit, time for work...Roxas do the dishes or we aren't going to have anything clean to eat off of anytime soon!

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You know...this top hat is pretty cool.

Judging by this costume I think I'm supposed to be a phantom of some kind.  I don't know why some people are freaking out...I think this is gonna be fun.

Halloween party anyone? Heh.

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(ooc: :P No he's not a clown you asshats.)

Son. Of. A. Bitch.

Yeah...I really don't know what else to fucking say about all this other than to reiterate the above point. I feel completely stupid for convincing Roxas to go with me now.

Maybe I'll add more later...I don't even really feel like being on the computer right now.

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I can't fucking see!

I must have been spending too much time on the computer since I'm typing anyways...dunno if I've mispelled anything...conventiently I was logged in before and was working on an entry when the 'side effect' kicked in.

I haven't heard from Roxas...I wonder if he's still asleep...I should probably check on him cause he took that anti-bubble juice too.

Good thing we were already moved in to our new place...about the only good thing right now.

Course I hope I don't trip over anything...

This is gonna suck.

Things always have to get complicated don't they.  Maybe if I just start working really hard I can forget about it and not have to think so much.  I thought coming back would be a great thing but things just have to suck more and more.

At least I have Roxas though.  Don't know what I'd do without him...guess it wouldn't matter really.

Fuck I'm starting to sound like the emo bookworm.  Can't have that now...next thing you know I'll start whining about the rain and how there's no more tea and woe is me, blah blah blah.

Whelp, best cure for this is to head out on the town and raise some hell....
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Okay not TOO much hell....don't wanna cause a riot or anything, sheesh.  God forbid I give Roxas or Demyx reason to be mad at me for setting something in town on fire.

Yeah, all that stuff I said during the "bubble" crap?  The apologizes and shit...

FUCK YOU ALL! I AIN'T SORRY FOR SHIT!

Now excuse me while I go set a few things on fire in an attempt to forget this ever fucking happened. 

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yeah...

So after our stay at a crappy motel on Radiant Gardens me and Rox are now in Twilight Town and by the looks of things we'll be here for awhile.

And man, I'm in a GOOD mood now. Probably won't last long knowing how things go but it's really nice to be close to someone like that...

I'm glad he didn't push me away...I guess I was just being paranoid about it.

...he tastes good...and he's probably going to hit me for that...but I really don't care cause it was worth it.

Not on the Islands anymore. Got Roxas with me at least. This ain't gonna be much of an entry cause we're about to go off again.

World hopping is much more fun with someone else to do it with, that's for sure.

We've reconciled. I think. At least he hasn't killed me in my sleep yet which is a plus, right? Apparently the only thing now is getting Sora to calm down. I think his anger towards me is affecting Roxas...I mean I know they have a link...and apparently Sora found out about the meeting...but is it really serious?

I mean...that meeting was kinda pointless and it's not like I signed up to join again or anything. I don't even know why I'm defending myself...oh...right...this is Sora's house that I'm staying in.

Heh, yeah that complicates things.

Speaking of complicating things wouldn't you know as soon as I get Roxas to sort of forgive me Xemnas sends me a letter. Ain't that just peachy.

But I talked Roxas through it...and I'm not going. I've come this far with Roxas...I feel like it'd be a waste if I ruined it again so shortly after it was barely mended (if any of that even made sense).

I just wish Sora didn't hold so much power over Roxas...he's his own person again. Let him make his own damn decisions and stop influencing him!

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I forgot how crappy a pillow my coat makes. Well at least it didn't rain...although I bet Roxas wish it did...

So, for those who DON'T know, my nonlife just went down the toilet faster than you can say "I know I should have told you." ...But I don't see how that's any different than you not telling me YOU were going EITHER! Apparently we need to work on some basic communication skills.

Anyways, not like that meeting was very helpful anyways...other than confirming that even though a good portion of the Organization is BACK they aren't very...Organized. I guess it's nice to know they aren't as completely mindless as one would be led to believe. I hate even referring to them as the Organization any more cause they...we aren't really uniting for a common goal it seems.

...at least not unless Xemnas can do some real convincing...cause that meeting fell short on that aspect and I think everyone knew it.

Well the sun's coming up...best start heading for Sora's...if I'm lucky Roxas will be willing to listen...if not...well...I guess there really is no need for me to stay on the islands then.

And just when I thought we could be something more it all goes and blows up in my face...sometimes being a fire element sucks

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So. Uhm...for starters I will NOT be telling you where I am at the moment as I don't want Saix to read this and come finish the job he started...and he did a MARVELOUS job at that...I'm bruised from my head to my toes and my muscles ache and it just hurts...EVERYWHERE! Fucking claymore weilding psychopath.

...yeah you're probably wondering how I ran into Saix.

Well let's just say that while I was left babysitting one of those lights got me. Dropped me in Radiant Garden. THERE I bumped into Zexion. Which was awkward...but that was to be expected. I think...possibly...we may have put the past behind us...but I can't be sure...I never was good at reading Zexion.

Still...after a short chat guess who comes to crash the party. Saix. FUCKING SAIX!

So I tried to portal out of there like the LAST time I encountered him...and the psychopath CHASED ME! Jeeze I didn't realize how much I'd pissed him off! Anyways since there was little chance of escaping if he was just gonna follow I turned and fought him back. At least I can suffer in my pain knowing VII is out there achy and in pain as well. I may not be an Organization puppet member any more but that DOESN'T mean I've lost my bite! Bastard.

Oh. And irony. I was cursing the light things earlier...but they totally saved my ass from Saix delivering any finishing blows. Thank you randomly teleporting white light.

So yeah...I'm currently in X world licking my wounds and posting this so a certain someone won't be pissed at me cause I shirked my duties. You can't be mad at me dammit! I was being CHASED BY SAIX!

Guess this means hiding is out of the question...not only does Zexion know I'm back but Saix...and you can be sure he'll tell The Superior...who is also back...

I am so fucked. So, so fucked! *headdesk* Ow! Bruises! Hold on I am so going to find an Item Shop or Moogle and get a potion or something...this just hurts.

So after...one and half days of uncomfortable hard floor my only comfort being Roxas's company I...well...we...well okay ROXAS has finally procured us a space in Sora's house. The room is small but I'm not going to complain because it has a bed, is indoors, there's food, and did I mention the bed that I get to share with Roxas.

Oh...intros...well I'm Axel, I was...gone for three years but now I'm back. We can celebrate this miracle later, I'm still in shock myself. Roxas made me get one of these...journal things...I don't think he's quite realized yet that now do I not only get to pester him in real life but also on the internet as well.

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A grave mistake my friend...but don't worry...I know you're used to it.

What else is there...oh yeah...Sora, Riku, and Kairi are still wary of me I think...I'm trying, really I am, but do you realize how long I was a) considered a bad guy or b) dead.

Yeah...this will take some adjusting, alright?

But...I made a promise to Roxas...I'll behave.

...and now I'm going to go get some food from the kitchen...I'm allowed to do that right? God I hope I don't have to ask permission to do everything around here...that's not fun at all.

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